So, I recoded this live
album well over a year ago. It was some time back in 2014. I got some friends
together and threw an album release party for my album “Flesh and Bones.” I had
big dreams for this live record. I was so excited to release it. I had spent a
lot of time practicing the songs, figuring out how to record the show with the
equipment I had, and figuring out what I wanted to say between songs. Over all
I was so stoked with how the night turned out. A bunch of friends came out to
Frisco CrossFit and hung out while I shared my music with them. I was happy
with my performance. It was a bit awkward because I am use to leading the
church in song on Sunday mornings. So, playing a “concert” was a bit awkward,
but I had a lot of fun doing it.
I quickly started the
mixing process at my home studio. I spent a good bit of time listening to the
entire show. Listening to yourself sing and play and speak is not the most fun
thing you can do with your time. There were many times where I found my self
blushing even though no one was around! So, the editing process began. There were a few
songs that I decided to cut. They were good in the moment, but not good enough
to float around on the inter-webs forever. Then it came to editing the speaking
parts… torture, I’ll leave it at that. After a few weeks of mixing and editing
I thought I was done. All I had to do was upload it and it would be released
for the world to hear.
But, I never did. I started to get in my own head too much. I started to over think everything and then I quickly started to doubt myself. Where my performances good enough? Did I sing in tune? Would any one actually want to listen to this? My own doubts, anxieties and fears got the best of me. Then a year plus went by and the record was still sitting on my hard drive.
So, the other day I opened up the files and listened to it. And you know what, I still shook my head at times as I was blushing, but what I heard coming our of my speakers wasn’t too bad! I actually liked it for what it was. A night of music in my CrossFit gym with my good friends.
So, I got my balls back and did a few more edits (took out the speaking parts) and uploaded that sucker onto the inter-webs. So, here it is. Is it perfect? No. Is it good? I think so. Will you like it? I hope so.
If anything, learn from my mistakes. Don’t let yourself talk yourself out of doing things you are passionate about. Things will never be as perfect as you want them to be. You will never be as good as you want to be. But just do it. Keep moving. Keep creating. Keep growing. Keep sharing the gifts God has given you with the world. Thanks for reading friends!